No, this post isn't about fapping.
I've never considered myself to be one of those people who need to listen to music all the time. I know some folks who constantly need to have their earphones out when they do basic tasks such as walking to work, being in an uber, doing work. For me, the only time I enjoy listening to music is when I'm either doing the dishes/cooking (when it's just nice background noise) and late at night to wind down before bed.
For this night time ritual, I usually just turn off all the lights and close my eyes and sit in my computer chair. And then I just listen. I feel that nowadays, most people don't really listen to music and the message it has. But it's a nice feeling when you really do.
So what do I listen to? The interesting part, and the reason I wanted to make this post, is because my taste in music has changed over the years. I remember in high school, I used to be more into songs that talk about being in love and all aspects of it. Of course, I still think those are great songs (like R&B tracks by Usher) but they don't really resonate with me in the same way anymore. Maybe it's because I've gotten more cynical and jaded about the world - or maybe it's because I was naive back in the day and this idea of "being in love" was just what was being sold to us through this media.
Anyway, I guess for the past 4-5 years or so I've been more into listening to songs that tell a general story, usually about a struggle about some individual's journey or reminiscing on the past. Two ones that immediately come to mind are "Money Trees" by Kendrick and "All of the Lights" by Kayne. I think both of these are phenomenal tracks and there's a real story there - about life and the trials that come along with it. Maybe it's a reflection of the fact that I too am thinking about the journey in my life and where I still need to go.
Sometimes, I also think about the fact that I rarely discover new music nowadays. I have about 1k tracks on Spotify and just listen to those on shuffle which, realistically, is probably enough diversity. I feel that the type of music you end up liking will always be biased towards your formative years such as in middle school/high school/early college. But maybe this is also just a character trait of my own and not something I should be projecting onto the general population - maybe this is just more evidence of my own bad habits about holding onto the past for new long instead of going out and discovering new things.
